Afterward when we were putting D4 to bed, she said “I love you guys so much and I just can’t choose who I want to put me to bed!” I assured her she doesn’t have to choose and she pulled us both in for a big group hug and gave us both lots of kisses.
omg this part made me cry. That is the both the sweetest and the saddest thing I've ever read here. I'm sorry that you're going through this, but I'm glad that your daughter is still getting lots of love from both of you. Sorry I haven't read your whole sitch - I will in time slowly. I think you're doing great though. Inevitably we will still feel that bit of sadness from time to time, but also keep it in perspective that when your H still walks out of the door after a nice family day - it means that they are still not ready to come back. And you wouldn't want him to be back when he's not ready anyway. is everything getting better? worse? who knows. Receive the present as it is, and let time be the judge.
