Giving space is to eliminate pressure. Sending the letter was pressure. 5 years on this board and have yet to see a letter work. If this was Hollywood then maybe it would be a different story. You operating under the illusion of action right now and your pursuit is only going to push her farther away.
Yes, I definitely hear you and understand that this would be the opinion held by the board.
I'll willingly admit a lot of my actions with regard to the letter were actions of fear, and actions of discomfort with my complete lack of agency. I do agree with my therapist though that I don't think WAW knows how much this has affected me, nor does she know the things I've been doing in the interim to improve myself.
Either way, it's sent and even if I have sender's remorse about it, I can't un-flip that switch.
There's such a weird game theory to this. I have to believe that so much of my WAW's actions are because she has no credible fear that I would ever just walk away, she knows (and she's probably right) that she holds the cards. And that's just such a crappy, uncomfortable position for me to be in.
