Newlywed and in crisis

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I’ve been detaching from W while also be nice to her when we are interacting. I think now there are small signs of improvement, she’s less cold now. At the moment, when she talks with me her tone is softer, but still distant. We don’t talk at all, no small talk, only when necessary. I tried to strike up a casual conversation, but she always gives one word replies and I ended up giving up with conversing with her and just shut my mouth. I figured shouldn’t try to start a convo because it might look like I am pursuing I guess. So when we’re together in the same room, it’s mostly quiet.

Had R talk with her yesterday. Her stance is still the same. She still feels nothing towards me. She feels miserable. She mentioned about how she doesn’t want kids but unsure why. She talked about what life would be like if she is divorced: would she marry another man, would she want to have kids with another man. She is unsure of the cause of a lot of the things she is feeling actually. I guess that is a good thing..?