I am so thrilled that you came back and posted. I was starting to feel bad and wondering if I was too hard on you or pushed you away. I am sorry that summer was so hard. Do you feel like the deep grief was therapeutic and helped you move towards acceptance?
He sounds like he is still quite a mess. You are right -- if he is a depressed, overweight alcoholic, it is very hard to imagine he is off having As or enjoying some extravagant life. Maybe there was one OW and it fell to pieces and now he is left with the guilt and residual damage he has caused? That could drive anyone to drink! I guess there is no way to know, so why focus on that.
I am glad that you are enjoying time with friends and have more trips planned. I hope you are finding some joy in the holidays.
Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
