I am so glad to hear from you, Dilly. It sounds like, despite the deep sadness and grief you are going through (I know how that feels) you are doing okay and looking after yourself and your kids. You sound much steadier and in control of what you want than you did earlier this year. I am so glad to hear that. Your H sounds like he is circling the drain. Painful for you to watch, but it sounds like you are detached enough that he isn't going to take you down with him. I hope having him around for Christmas isn't too difficult for you.

I will catch up with you again in the new year, I hope. x