I really do. We are having gifts at my parents house today and she was not invited. Now tomorrow her Dad has told me he would like for me to come for the kids sake. I told him I would do it for the kids. I’m second guessing that and feeling like it isn’t a good idea.

I know I need to be much much firmer in speaking with her. I understand she has no respect for me, our family, or our Sons. She has destroyed their family and a life in which they will always resent her. They will more than likely blame her and not trust her. I’m saying this because I feel this way about my own mother. As hard as I try I have never fully forgiven my mother. I still don’t which is a problem but that’s ok. I had a lot of pain and heartache due to my parents splitting up and my mother marrying her infidelity partner. I watched my own father never remarry and never become involved with another woman.

I feel bad for my father because now I realize the pain he must have endured. It’s hard to watch, even as a kid, one parent move in in happiness while the other parent struggles with the loss and never fully recovers from it.