Just a quick update, but mostly I wanted to come here today to wish all of ye my best wishes over the Holiday season. Unfortunately this time of year often is associated with past memories of better times and a sad reminder of what is missing. I urge ye to focus on the good parts of your lives and make the most of the festive season.
As for me, this is my sixth Christmas in the midst of this crisis. My sixth time facing into making the most of it. I manage to a certain extent but admit things are tinged with not being entirely happy with how things are. This isn't how I want to live. Each year I Wonder if it'll be our last together. Sometimes i feared that and more recently wished for it!! But that is something 2020 will figure out.
We had our annual r chat. W very unhappy and I will admit all her points were mostly valid. she still is blinded and deaf about my side of things so being a week before Christmas I let it slide. No point adding to the tension before the house fills up with her extended family!!
And yet things could be worse. A lot worse. I don't have time to outline any more for now.
Best wishes everyone. Be strong
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together
