It’s the first time in 5 years that I’m genuinely not sad this season. In fact, im feeling pretty good and have a lot to be grateful for. Aside from that rediculous attempt at settling, this holiday season has been pretty magical. I’ve been fortunate to spend quality time with my family making traditional foods, I’ve hung out with friends and watched Christmas movies and walked around with the pup to look at Christmas lights. I’m baking cookies tomorrow with my mom and sister..... things are nice. I’m happy and glad to be an active participant in the festivities. It was too painful not th past. This process takes time and patience... I think it’s the best remedy in landing on our feet.
Wait! I take it back- I am sad that I won’t have my dog on Christmas since it’s lands on ex’s day. Ex doesn’t celebrate Christmas and while I want my dog... I know that even trying to do a date change wouldn’t fly with ex.
That’s ok, my dog had an awesome weekend leading up to Christmas and he was spoiled by everyone since they knew he wouldn’t be with us on Christmas. Yeahhh in my family.... the dogs are part of the family 100%.
One last dog story... I had mentioned before that I think ex is watching out the small glass window on the front door. I got more evidence this morning... I dropped the dog at the house this am. When ex opened the front door to let the dog in, the dog took a pause before walking in and ex nearly shut the door on him. I saw it happening so I was like “ahh dog!” And then ex had to reopen the door to actually let the dog in. Whatever he was looking at, he certainly wasn’t paying attention to the dog.
Enough pup stories for now. It’s a very festive week... I hope everyone enjoys the celebrations.
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
