I am glad you have found an IC--I hope he/she gives you the kind of support you need, and if not, don't be afraid to consult with some others if you think it's not the right fit. I'm sorry some of your friends contribute more to the negativity. It's such hard work to stay positive and not get sucked in to the S's version of everything, IMO. It's also hard to walk away feeling worse, instead of better, after you've confided in a friend. I have two friends in particular who I've found myself confiding in the most, because they understand that I need help staying positive, and they get why I'd want to have hope in the first place.
I also feel like it was important for me to be able to tell these friends what kind of support I needed early on, i.e. I need to vent about H, but I don't want you to get angry at H too; I need you to help me have a greater, more loving perspective in this moment. Do you think your friends would be responsive if you told them what kind of support would be most helpful to you right now?
