I agree with IH, you're staying on the right track. Stick with NC unless it's about the kids. She's not repentant yet, she's just throwing lures at you to try and hook you. If she does she'll never reel you in, she'll be content to leave you dangling on the line. She's got to think she may really lose you and she's not there yet. You are right, she continues to be disrespectful and defiant.
I agree about her wanting to keep me on the hook. If I don’t respond to text and stay gone she checks the phone bill to see who I have been calling and what I am up too. Why would she even care? Her plans are to make a decision in January. She wants to attend at least 2 counseling sessions. All of this is to benefit her and what ever her plans are in the future or what she thinks her plans are in the future.
I believe if I give in to that then she would just be going about her business trying to control and manipulate this situation. I will not let that happen because I see right through it. She is going through this journey and I am stepping aside to let her.
I believe the OM will be leaving and taking another job after the first of the year. She is probably thinking she will make a decision then because they could possibly be together then. If this is so she will have to make the decision knowing that I have stood up for what is right and I have become stronger by not begging and pleading or being around her.
What ever may happen in the future, I know that I will be ok. I’ve been reading and working on my own shortcomings. I have a lot of work to do as someone else stated. I have some issues from my past that have caused me to be a beta male and has made me unattractive.
I am slowly gaining my confidence back. I think the key is to continue to be patient and follow the DB methods. I realize I have been caught in a cycle and I can’t continue to be stuck in that same loop. At the end of the day happiness comes from within and not someone else or something else. When we are passionate and living with purpose we show off our Alpha male tendencies and we become attractive and confident.
