I have been reading the posts that Sandi made here and I have a couple of questions.
If she was escaping unhappiness in MR and foreign country and now she keeps ignoring me like a piece of paper, what chances do I have? who wants to go back to a place where we have suffered? I guess I am having a bad day, I asked her to talk about the kids this weekend and of course it was a mistake, back to GAL and LRT.
I keep reading and trying to accept the idea that she must decide, she must want to come back to the marriage and all I can do is be the greener grass. It is so unfair she cannot observe her mistakes, I made an unfortunate comment on the phone yesterday and she quickly cut me saying, "just stop, dont say that, what you ought to say is ok and listen". I am banging my head against a wall and I cannot ignore her and do a proper 180 because I still have that feeling that my life has collapsed.
When I speak to my son he keeps telling me he wants to live with us together, he wants to go back home in Germany and play with me again. I might have been a bad husband or taken my wife for granted but who does not ache in front of those words? I know they need me strong and positive but I am finding myself praying to God now. I cannot talk to my W, friends and family mock me for my position and hope and my son is asking me to keep going and that is enough to make me shake earth and sky. Thanks a lot to all of you!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me 29 W:29 M: 5yrs T:10yrs S:6 yrs S:1 yr BD: "I want a D" 08/09/19 Sep: 10/27/19