Keep up the good work. I think letting those thoughts sit with you is really helpful, even though it isn't pleasant. It starts to move you from thinking what you want is HER into what you want for YOU.
How has the GALing been going? How are your dogs? Are you excited to spend Christmas with your family, surrounded by people that love you?
Hope you're feeling better too!
xo May
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing