Separated after LTR & want to reconcile. How?

[Alicia19]

Hi. Total newbie here. Just waiting for the book and looked at posts.

We weren’t married but lived together for 4 years. Total together 5. He was a father figure to my two kids. No affairs. Nothing too awful. But he felt I wasn’t supportive and we argued too much so when I over reacted and pushed him awayagain and said leave, he left. It has been a year. I’ve tried another coach since May but I keep reaching out. He will respond but If relationship talk he will ignore. He has said "been too long, everyone knows, feelings not there anymore" (used to be “feelings so strong don’t know what to do”). So total different person. I’ve learned my mistakes and want to get back together and start anew, do it right but he isn’t open to it...We did have lots of good times and lots of love but I feel there is a wall and he definitely isn't treating me as well as he used to.

Where do I begin with this new process that is taught by this program? Are expensive coaching sessions helpful? The other coach told me to stay friends and be open to a new relationship with someone new.

I have a hard time letting go....thank you for any information, direction, lessons.