You need to create a new thread over on the Newcomers Forum. You would create a new thread just as you did this one. To help you a bit, copy and paste your posting from here into the new thread over there. You will have a larger audience there and lots of wonderful people will come by to visit, post and offer you support.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
