You have an explanation for everything C. AMOAFWL doesn't pursue like this. The best thing you could do is go NC. It is statically the best way to get an ex back. You need a good friend who is a PUA to help you with some basics.
Soon enough I think she is going to be tired of this.
Remember what I said about your actions are in your silence and your actions speak louder than words. You will learn AS YOU BECOME MORE COMFORTABLE WITH YOURSELF that the silence will hurt at first because of attachment, dependency, guilt, past mistakes, etc. But eventually you realize who you are again, what is right FOR YOU. WHAT YOUR STANDARDS AND CONDITIONS ARE AND WHAT YOU ARE WILLING TO COMPROMISE AND NOT COMPROMISE. You are slowly detaching and rebuilding worth in yourself. A person of worth and self respect doesn't keep pursuing people who take actions against them and what they stand for. If they want space. Give it to them. If they want a divorce. Grant it to them. If they no longer say they love you. BELIEVE THEM FOR THAT MOMENT. Let them go. You can't be in love with a memory. It is not now. It is was or has. Cut off all communications. Don't answer texts. Don't answer phone calls. Take 4-24 hrs to answer emails unless a priority. . Reject all breadcrumbing, indecisiveness on her part, manipulation, attempts to half heartedly reconcile, attempts to draw you back in, dates, etc. Remember how everyone here said. If she wants to reconcile, YOU WILL KNOW IT. Make her work to earn you trust through actions. There won't be any confusion. She has to choose fully and whole heartedly by her own volition and not by persuasion or manipulation. People are where they are because THEY CHOOSE TO BE THERE. I dont care if you are a rebellious teenager or a fully grown adult. We all make choices and decisions. Sometimes they are healthy. Sometimes they are not. God has to come before you. You have to come before you're XW and your kids have to come before both of you. Stop treating someone like a priority that treats you like an option. ^^^ This right here what ovrrnbw said.