MLC or Exit Afffair?

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I woke up in the middle of the night to find H is still out wherever he goes at night. It is 4 a.m. I used to feel a little sorry for him that he may be a MLCer who is confused and in emotional pain, but now I just wanna give him a swift kick in the pants. Maybe that would wake him up.

I really need to work harder to GAL, 180, etc. because these emotions keep flooding in unexpectedly. I guess that is normal. Yesterday was a good day though. My children noticed that I was in good spirits. The youngest child even said, "Mom, I hope you stay like this." I think I am in the acceptance stage - acceptance that my H is a huge jerk and there is nothing I can do to change it, so I may as well move on and live my life. When and if he ever comes around, maybe I will still be standing. This is one of the most difficult things I have ever done in life, for sure.