Two feet, I would
Move out to Colorado without even blinking if I could. I am a nurse and I’m lucky my profession yields similar salaries throughout the country in addition to there always being jobs.

Georgia! Welcome back. I read your update and I can’t begin to say how much I relate. Although a inch of guys aren’t checking me out, lol. Everyone else but me pretty much has someone. And it is tough. Most of my ex boyfriends are getting married or couples and everyone around me is too. It just adds to the loneliness. All we can do is the best we can, right? Hugs right back at ya!!!

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I was doing some somewhat positive thinking. Which is not easy for me right now. But hey, why not?

I’m surviving work, it got a little better today. I got to my fitness class 2 days in a row! I’m kicking butt there. But the sweet treats keep rolling in...... I haven’t been going out, so my drinking is minimal. One glass of wine per night.

For some reason I began thinking of the what I really liked about the guys I most seriously dated. Or meant the most to me anyways. I’m trying to roll them all together to really figure out what I am looking for.

Each guy had their own very special qualities. Each relationship had their own “pull”

The first guy we dated shortly, he didn’t want anything serious with me and we became FWB over the course of 4-5 years on and off. He was 15 years older but in similar places. We never really went out, maybe dinner a few times, but I loved hanging at his place. We both loved the same hockey team and would watch games together with our own running commentary. We were comfortable
with each other and a place of comfort until he found “the one” my favorite dates were the time we played Mario cart while drinking wine. I remember it vividly. The other one was where we spent New Year’s Eve together watching Times Square show on the Spanish channel. I smile every time I think of that night.

Then there was exNG. I don’t think I will ever have a connection with anyone like him again. It can’t be explained. If there are soul mates who aren’t meant to be together, he was it. I think he would still say the same even though he is engaged. I have never felt so comfortable and me around anyone in my life. Since he was out of state, we spent whole weekends together. Cooking dinner together. Spending time with our friends up there, shopping, having a lazy Sunday on the couch in front of the fire talking about everything and just watching Tv. I wish more than anything all the more fundamental stuff could have come together for us. But it didn’t.

FF. 9 years younger. No one has ever made me feel like a more special woman than he did. He wanted to spend time to with me. Thought up fun dates. When we first started seeing each other, I remember one night, we only had 45 min to spend together while my D was at dance. I had to go to the grocery store. He came with me just to see me. I loved the relationship we had. He knew how to date a woman. But again, the age difference couldn’t let it happen.

Then M. Oh M. My longest. The one I thought I had a future with. What did I love about our R? Well, he seemed really into me at first. And was always wanting to help me with physical stuff. We did always have fun together when he would want to spend time with me. But the truth is. The connection wasn’t really there like with the other guys. I thought he was more practical, but he wasn’t . And it makes me sad. He was right. There was something missing. I think if he wasn’t still dealing with all the stuff, he could have connected more.

Oh. I forgot my exH. I haven’t really highlighted the positive in a long time from when we were together. He also spoke my LL of quality time. He did love to spend time with me. He was pretty engaged with me too, honestly. We did almost everything together. And we went to bed every night together ( unless I was working night shift, of course) we enjoyed the same things. He’s just was mean and selfish. If he was more loving, caring, and empathetic, I imagine he would have been a good husband and a good match for me.

If you actually read this, congrats.

I have found very different qualities in different t men. There one good ones.
I imagine myself with a guy who desires to spend time with me, has similar interest, and we have that great connection, where we could do anything or nothing as long as we are together and still enjoy it. Someone who thinks I’m important. Someone I feel comfortable with and treats me like a lash, and does t just give up.

I hope he’s out there. But it’s a tall order, I know that.