Some days I want to ask him to leave and start his new life. Some days I miss him. Some days I let him get to me, as much as I try to detach
I feel the same way. our feelings will go up and down. we will want to stay and leave. We are not perfect, we can only try our best to DB. Also it's not the end of the world if we have a couple missteps along the way.
my H is also numbing himself with alcohol (for a long time). He constantly claims that he's going to stop "soon," or he's going to drink less, or he needs to get back to the gym...yadayada over and over again. They have to deal with their own demons, there's nothing we can do for them. Yes, it is sad to watch, but ultimately we can only detach and accept the fact that it is their journey.
