Down, but not out ..... yet.

[Ginger1]

Today was interesting. After last weeks h@lll week, I show up to work and they tell us we are had 3 call outs. Which left us severely short handed and me handling my whole huge floor. 2 of us had 10 more patients than everyone else. I was one of them. They said “do what you can” but admittedly said whatever we don’t do, we have to catch up with. I left at 4:30 ( half hour later than quitting time) because I had to go grocery shopping, cook dinner and take the dog to the vet.

And get this. Our crazy witch manager made us go to her meditation gong emersion. You heard me right. I hated it it. I will not get that hour back of my life. The hints were so loud, I couldn’t relax and they were giving me anxiety. She said we needed to go so we could relax and have a work life balance. See, a work life balance to me is getting home to my child on time! My relationship with my coworkers on my floor is growing though. They are such a great group.

I also forgot my phone today. It was quite liberating being disconnected today. And when I was getting my morning coffee, I swear a guy was checking me out. We locked eyes. And smiled. His eyes were a beautiful blue, which I have always been a sucker for. The only brown eyes I have ever actually dated my exH I also realize I have thing for blue collar workers. He was some guy on some bright yellow vest about to do physical work.... and I like that. I’ve dated a plumber, HVAC,FF........ I’m totally into the blue collar guys. Probably because I like manly men. I’ve never dated a suited up man before. M was kind of techie too, working and fixing phone systems. I guess it’s my thing. Maybe I need to change it up. The last guy was a creative director for a large make up company..... that was different for me.
In case you can’t tell. I miss men. Lol. I think this might be one of my longer periods of no men at all. And I miss having a guy. But y’all knew that already.

I spent $300 updating my dogs vaccines today. I am hurting for money so badly. Even with another job, I feel like I’ll never catch up. I feel more like I need 2 jobs. I actually had tears leaving the vet today. I’m never going to get ahead. And probably will never get even.

One income in NJ is really freakin’ hard to live on. I can’t wait to blow this joint. One day.