This is so strange to me! Is it just another thing that you can’t begin to make sense of, another sign of their confusion and fog? This is also making remember that in the letter he wrote me before we started dating for good again after the college break-up, he said he used to look at my picture every night in his room by himself, before he made himself believe there was no chance I would love him again and he decided to stop thinking about us and keep himself busy.
Something he did tear up into little pieces and throw away: an ad that came addressed to him in the mail for an anniversary necklace, “engraved” with a love poem from him to me. I found this kind of funny—i.e. apparently it’s getting to him, or he would’ve just thrown it away with the rest of the mail and not taken the time to tear it up first!
