Yep, MLCers do that, i.e., they save notes, gifts, cards and wrapping paper in some cases. Very, very typical behavior for someone in crisis. They will look at those things over and over again when they are alone and/or can't sleep at night.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
