However, your journey is also beginning. It's a journey of self exploration, i.e., learning about yourself, thinking about what you want to do w/your life while he is orbiting the earth.
One thing I've discovered in this crappy time is that I'm a lot more secure in my sense of self than he is and better able to find happiness within myself. I want that for him too. My main fears are financial--I now have to find a new job that can support me, because even with alimony my current job won't cut it, and I have to have faith that will happen. In the meantime, I am taking comfort in the fact that I CAN find fulfillment own my own, even if I do miss sharing so many aspects of daily life with him. I've rediscovered a lot of confidence in myself that I'd forgotten I had. I'm also learning about how to be vulnerable, and that both of these--strength and vulnerability--can exist at once.
I'm still thinking about what PLC said in her thread: "I am stronger than he realizes."
