Divorce because I betrayed her trust - PART 6

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Surveyor coming round to view the house today. W was at the house to meet them.
Bit stressful really - I know I'm not there and it's entirely her project, but it's just making things more real.

I am trying to put a lot of effort into maintaining my PMA and attitude, so if W does need to see me in person, I can be confident and demonstrate my 180s. I do know that it's not for her at all, it's for me. I do however want some of the satisfaction that will come from showing her how I've turned myself around.

Any advice on the above dilemma re Xmas present?