Another weekend alone with me, myself, and I. I didn’t even leave the house yesterday. Work was so bad last week I was totally shot. I wasn’t going to go to our groups holiday party because I worked so late and had an awful headache... but I showed up. And people actually cheered! I’m glad I went. We are all pretty fed up at work. Our boss is pretty bad. What she did was so wrong. And we are pretty tired of working these long days with no compensation and only to be demoralized.
Anyways. So yesterday, alone, all day, in my jammies. I needed it. I cleaned the house, did laundry, took a few naps, etc. I needed it. Today I went and got an oil change and went to the gym. And my plantar fasciitis is back now that I’m running. I had surgery on one foot, but it’s pretty bad in the other. I need to shop for better sneakers. But I got my exercise in.
My dad informed me that him and his wife are coming Friday night and staying all the way through until Christmas night. We will be away together from Saturday and Sunday. I’m a little nervous. I give up my room..... which is a pain because I got to work and get ready in there. But at least they will be with D 12 when she is off mo day and Tuesday. For half the day on Christmas Eve, she wants to go see her stepmothers parents. Which I said was fine as long as she was home by the time I got home from work. My stepmother said she would make dinner one night. And my daughter has a sleepover at her friends that Tuesday night.
So. I have a confession. I feel like such a loser that I can spend a whole weekend alone. I don’t know why, but I just feel like a loser. And I get sad when I see social media and all these families doing chritmassy things together.... couples doing the same. And hey! It’s me and my dog!
At least I didn’t do anything stupid like text M. He’s been on my mind. I didn’t sign up for online dating either. Although the funny thing is I had time this month to date, but next month I start my new job.....
This is my life. I don’t know where I’m going. I feel like I will continue to be alone for another 12 years. Just hoping for this amazing guy to swoop in and like me so much that is potent and loving, thinks my life is as important as his and is willing to do what he needs to be a part of it.
