We are here for you. Your journey hasn't been an easy one and I can so relate to many of the things that have transpired throughout your journey. My journey wasn't a piece of cake either, just know, I'm in your corner and will be here throughout the last leg of your journey in MLC land.
Take the time to work things out in your heart and mind. If you are a weird spot, just sit quietly and the answers will come.
Take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.