My WAS - looking help and thanks in advance PART 7

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I've always been of the thought that my recon was a tentative one. Lately I've questioned myself a lot, and whether I have the skills needed to make a meaningful change in the way I act. I've tried to step out there and do things I didn't want to do, but that I thought would be good for my marriage.

I don't want to type my traditional long winded post. W's parents are pretty well off, and her dad runs a bunch of older trucks for plowing snow. I have told them for a while that I don't want to plow snow anymore. I got sucked into last year for one day, but it was 21 hours straight in the car. It [censored]. I screwed up something for the inlaws on Friday. I am an insurance agent and there was a problem yesterday getting insurance on their plow trucks, which I did not forsee.

Now the snow is here and they need me to plow and I really don't want to. Argument ensues, W takes her parents' side, and she wants a divorce again. I'm upset. I'm wondering how much a person can really love you and honor their commitment when this is "all it takes". But I know this seems like a much bigger deal to W. When I didn't spring to my feet to help her, there wasn't much I could do to recover in her mind/heart.

I was in a bad spot emotionally throughout this talk with the W. She reminds me how her dad has offered a lot of help (free or discounted) to us over the years when building houses, working on the barn we are currently building.

Now I have to talk to the inlaws further in regards to the insurance stuff I messed up for them on these plow trucks, and I probably owe it to them to go plow snow. This should make for a fun day. Guess I need to go back to basics.

Thanks for reading, I hope I can get some support here.