C was postponed until next week by W. She was selling mediation hard last week, and with time passing I feel more strongly that she wants mediation because it’s her best way to get what she wants. I’m leaning heavily towards just doing this with L’s.
I don’t see much benefit to mediation other than it would be the most cost effective way to D if we were amicable. The heavy power dynamic makes me think mediation is a waste of time and emotional energy that I should be using towards my self improvement.
My W wants to keep the house. It’s not financially possible unless I cave in. She won’t go back to work until she knows where she is living. The custody situation is perpetually unclear. Little financial slips are constant, and she is always bending the rules that we both agreed to. If I ask for an item from the house, she wants to purchase a replacement. I’m tired of negotiating all these little things.
I’m just done. I don’t want to “L up” out of anger. But it feels like the best option I have or I will keep sacrificing my time with the kids and money for a situation I am not happy with.
