"JJ", That is very interesting put that way. We allow fear to causes us to try and control 2/3 when that is already gone due to the betrayal and deception from the A. For you to have 1 in a relationship there has to be respect and some admiration toward an individual to feel attraction. I've realized it's not just physical appearance.
I am not overweight and I haven't let myself go from an appearance stand point. I will admit that my actions have shown weakness and not strength which is what I have to get back. Not for my relationship but for myself and my future relationships.