Well I got the ole you don't really love me or you would go to counseling speech yesterday. She has also moved back in the MB to sleep and refuses to leave the room. I can't persuade her to get out. Anything I say she spins or she mentions my affair from 17 years ago, me telling the OM wife, or me never being around as a husband. 1st night I just decided to go sleep in another bed. Last night I didn't budge and stayed in my own bed. I'm thinking it might be time to change the lock on the door and move her belongings to another room.
After no communication for 4 days she is feeling like I am giving up or letting her go. She has been drinking some, crying some, and texting or calling a little more than usual. I have not been answering her calls and rarely text her back. She gets really angry when I don't text her back.
She got some bad news regarding her job and that really hasn't helped my situation. If anything it throws her closer to her affair partner and now almost guarantees they may have to communicate.
She is going to see a lawyer this afternoon for legal advice. I told her she should go if that is what she wanted to do. She mentioned that she just needed to file and I told her that if she feels that way then I will be alright with it.
I have been very busy but have had no other choice. It has been good for me and has allowed me to not think about my situation as much as I have in the past. In the mean time I have really had doubts about my future with my wife. The more time I spend on myself, the more I realize that I deserve better for myself. It's almost like I have realized there is more to life than living like this because I know I don't have too. I really care about my son and need to do what is best for him and myself. I now realize that letting her go emotionally is very rewarding for me and my mental health. I feel so much better.
