DnJ, you are Yoda and I am Luke Skywalker. Lol. Thank you.
As part of the healing process, I am transferring memories from my head onto this thread. The theory is that ceremonially downloading these thoughts will free up disk space in my mind and improve my processing speed. So to speak.
The added benefit is the reaction from you all to help me keep things in perspective.
Here are the most 'memorable' things H said to me in the four days between BD and moving out. I'm sure all LBS have heard a variation of the below in their own situations. These words make a lot more sense when seen through the lens of the OW's presence, but without that knowledge at the time, I understood very little of it. Hearing this from the person who vowed to love, cherish, and protect me sent me into a catatonic state of shock, as I'm sure you all have felt before too.
“I don’t love you” “I don’t like being around you” “I don’t feel any connection to you” “We don’t have anything in common” “I see no future with you” “I settled for you” “You are the safe option” “You’re holding me back” “I don’t respect you” “I have too much disdain for you” “You disgust me” “You are lazy and boring” “You are bad company” “You make no effort to better yourself” “I need to see what else is out there” “I want the chance to sleep with other people” “I give everything and never get anything back” “I feel trapped with this life” “I want my freedom” “I won’t do something because society expects it” “I haven’t been happy for years” “The only thing I care about is my own happiness” “It’s not about what you want, it’s about what I want” “You never tried to be good enough for me” “You weren’t the wife that I deserved”
