Today was a bit of a tough day. STBXW requested money from me via Venmo for D4's clothes. This is totally normal, part of our divorce agreement (she buys all of the clothes, I reimburse 50% up to a set amount). But something caught my eye - her last name was her maiden. We both were lax about that in the past so I thought that maybe she had always been [maiden]. But then I confirmed that she changed in on facebook in the past month. And it hit me. Not logical, not rational, not like I believed that she wasn't going to go through with this because she hadn't changed her name online. But man, it's hit me. You'd think that I'd be done by now as I sit in a house I bought by myself two months ago, eating by myself like I have been for three months, us barely acknowledging each other's presence at work and so on that I'd be resolved to the end but I guess not. Really [censored].
M(35), W(35), D(4) M-9, T-12 Bomb Drop (D announcement) - May 3, 2019 W moved out Aug 13 House sold Sept 25 Papers signed Nov 15 Divorce finalized Dec 12
