[quote] I think I'm growing too it's just at a snails pace compared to other people here likely due to the part where I struggle with negativity. I have times when I feel optimistic and positive it just doesn't last long...yet. I want to give up sometimes but I have not.
I am a runner and I'm pretty good (I know bragging) I usually end up places in most of my races. But the times that I couldn't enjoy my achievements is when I start comparing myself to others. If guy who is older, or doesn't look like a runner, or runs less than me beat me, I used to get annoyed, mad and dismiss my achievements.
See the problem wasn't that I wasn't doing well. It was that I was comparing myself to others. And being human, I never compared myself to slower runners, etc. I always compared myself to the most successful.
With this process, you have to run your own race. You can't compare to people on a message board. You have to look at where you were, where you are and where you are going. The guy thing is a great example of a positive change. Take stock every now and then. And give yourself credit when you feel negative.
