Thanks, D! I’m pretty excited to have something to look forward to. It’ll be a lot of fun. And my friend was sweet, she said “this week is going to be all about you” I can’t remember the last tome it has been all about me!
I’ve been thinking more and more about what I want when I do decide to jump back into that dating pool. And what what brought up on thread And how much I am growing more self respect I am getting.
Too many men have only wanted to date me with the expectation that I nearly fit into their lives. They have acted like their lives are so much more special than mine, I should think their schedules are more special than mine, their kids and their hobbies. And unless I just went along with THEIR flow, they really ended up not interested.
I’m important. My daughter is important. My family is important . My schedule is important. What I enjoy is important.
And when I’m dating a guy, their children, schedule, family, and interests are important to me too. But it is a two way street. We both should make each other feel important and respect each others lives and make accommodations when needed.
I have this weird feeling. I feel like I am even LESS likely to find someone because I am only willing to engage in a mutual interest and involvement in another’s life. I know where I am in life right now is not congruent with men in my age range. They are typically newly divorced and just want someone who can go with THEIR life and flow. Because that’s all they seem to be capable of. I only hope I am fortunate enough to find someone healed enough and interested enough to be a part of my life too. It’s a tall order it seems.
How do I feel about my continues singledom? I really miss having someone to talk to. To cuddle with . To spend time with. To ask me how my day was. But I am also enjoying not having to deal with someone who just wants what he wants with no real regards to my feelings. That feels pretty bad. It doesn’t work for me anymore. I want someone in my life who wants to be there, even when it doesn’t work for them perfectly.
Anyways. I’m zapped. I was supposed to go to my class tonight, but I worked too late, it’s hell over there and I am just exhausted. Blood vessels broke in my eyes and all my joints hurt. I think I am just exhausted.
