Time for a new thread... Take a look at the sticky links for how to do this.
Regarding the paper, recognize that you are mind-reading and perseverating (one of my favorite anxiety words) on it. Try to resist projecting what is written on it, what it means, etc. etc. Recognize you are feeding your brain's desire to keep that cyclone of thoughts spinning in your head. Let go.
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Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.