Aww, dawn, you are so sweet. And you get me. I know it sounds weird, but I feel like I have earned certain basic things in my life, like a loving partner and stability.
Funny enough one of my best friends, the one who I went to FL with for the wedding text me last night saying “we need to start planning for your 40th, what do you want to do?!” Funny how the universe works. A friend and ex coworker who I haven’t seen for a very long time day a picture of D12 on facebook and said, wow, you are getting old!” As a joke of course. And I said yup, the big 4-0 is 6 mo the away” probably what triggered my friend and she sent me that text.
Any ways, we think we are going to FL to celebrate with friend. And we are going to go to st Augustine for a day which I have been wanting to visit. Or maybe we will do Disney . So I’m excited.
I have mostly married friends, yes. And I’m happy they haven’t went down the road I have. Work has been pretty bad. It’s so unmanageable and the morale is pretty low right now. I’m working too long every day and I am zapped of all energy. And work has been a little more difficult with my aunt on my floor. It’s so sad to see what happened to her. She’s got a psychotic photo of dementia going on right now. She thinks her husband is trying to kill her and “steal the kids” and he’s been so great to her. I saw tears in his eyes today. I walk past her room and she calls out to me, because for some reason She feels safe with me. My uncle stops me when I’m in the area too every time because he doesn’t know what to do. She went home today. I hope they can handle her and she begins to go back to pleasantly confused. She’s a shell of what she was. My cousin told me she feels like she lost her mom and her dad does too.
