Like you, I also am prepared for the worst but so far no evidence of OW with my H. I did a bit of digging but saw nothing suspicious. So I’ve stopped thinking about it, because like R2C said, either way I keep DBing. Right now I’m operating as if there is no OW.
I understand the ego part and no one would want to be played for a fool. But if your W has OM and you discover it later, she’d be the fool. You would just be the man who has kept doing the right things to make yourself a better man. And at that point, you might be ready to move on anyway.
For Xmas we’re having family over and yes, playing family is not great. But it’s just a couple hours and I can live with that. We’re playing family every weekend actually, so Xmas is not that much different to me.
