Is there hope?

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U, you're right. At first I used every minute I possibility could but now I see its unrealistic l, exhausting and took mental energy from the kids. One day at a time. S is teething so I suppose the best thing I can do is sleep!

Kas, this is really good information, thank you. I'm in charge of most finances which is helpful. I've got a budget for now, three years back and the future assuming I get the house. Alimony and child support calculated and factored in. Im so sorry to hear you've a teen going on anti depressants. All ages seem to get hit hard. Youre right in that my S1 will probably not be as affected. D4 I feel so badly for. Whenever we draw, she always wants a whole family. Love Finger Family and similar songs, always wants the whole family in a toy set. We raised her on family being first.

Limbo aka purgatory is something else. Especially knowing OM is still in contact. It would be a little more bearable for me to live in this limbo for the kids if there was no OM.