My M is over. He's got OW, shows no signs of wanting to reconcile, haven't spoken to him in 4 months and for financial reasons I filed for D. I do not know if he's been served yet.
I'm stuck on the part where he has someone and I'll be alone forever. He gets his happily ever after while I struggle to buy groceries. He gets everything and I get nothing. I got dumped and was replaced so easily after 30 years together. She gets my life, the life that was supposed to be mine. If I do date all that will be out there will be damaged obese men that I'm not attracted to. WAH is fit, we had great chemistry and I'll never get that again. She has it. Logically I know I'm being ridiculous but emotionally this is where I'm stuck.
You still have so much negative emotional spiraling... You will not be alone forever if you do not want to be. He is not going to get his "happily ever after" while you struggle to buy groceries, that's just silly. You will become an independent woman who doesn't need him in your life just to be able to afford groceries. Why would you go on further dates with people you aren't attracted to? If you aren't attracted to them, find someone else... No one is forcing you to go out with damaged, obese men that you aren't attracted to. There are plenty of decent options out there that will check the right boxes for you. But if you're a damaged, obese woman what are your plans to change that in order to attract the type of men you want?
You must start putting one foot in front of the other and figure out what GAL'ing looks like for you. Allowing yourself to get stuck in this same negative thinking loop each and every day will get you nowhere.
