Please do not do this until you have dealt with your own issues. Or you will be heading towards another future BD
When he left I started talking to OM online (did not cheat). I got BD only because I said no to his offers to visit me. I did come very close to doing something stupid. Met another man online and it ended the same way. At that point I realized I needed to go cold turkey from men. It was tough but within 3 months I got a handle on it. When I found out about the OW I contacted the first OM. We texted until noon until I lost interest. I felt cured.
I was only interested in signing up for OLD for reassurance that's likely to backfire so I won't do it.
