I would hope that the thing you learn through all of this is that your happiness and your fulfillment is solely in your hands. Struggling to buy groceries? So go out there and change it! (Hint: It has nothing to do with relying someone else!)
I'm honestly glad ya'll are calling me out on this. It embarrasses me to be this weak. I write these posts, read responses as my brain slowly rewires itself. It probably seems like I'm getting nowhere but I am I'm just slow.
Logically I know my happiness is in my hands I just can't get it to stick emotionally.
On groceries WAH isn't paying me what he's supposed to so I filed for D. I've got a cushion in my bank account and I've got $9k for legal fees (saved while he was still paying all my bills). I'm prepared to hunker down for a few months until I get a support hearing. We both have good attorneys but he cheated and I didn't. We live in a fault state and he got complacent.