It's over. How do I live without him?

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Hi Kas,
I've been following you off and on. Just wanted to say I'm sorry for what you are going through. While H seems happy, he has to live with what he did, whether he ever recognises it or not. Honeymoon stage will end with OW. Maybe he will repeat his mistakes, maybe he will realize what was lost. What I think is important is your efforts and strength to get through such an unexpected and unwelcome journey. I feel the same way as you, if my W signs the D, I'm left alone, with cute and wonderful baggage. You will get through it and you never know who is out there when you're ready. There's a number of us all going through these circumstances, self improving and pro-work it out until there are no options left people. Maybe you find someone who went through just as tough a journey and who rebuilt themselves from the ground up.