Divorce and Acceptance Part 4

[Pax_luv]

Thank you so much for the feedback.

Own, I sincerely appreciate you taking the time to jot down all that you have. Just.... thank you. It was very helpful food for thought.

I did go to my lawyer about all the details in regards to the dog and he understands my stance. He doesn’t want me to get ahead of myself, but he does get it. He did mention that the trial likely wouldn’t be set until late summer or early fall and that we could have until then to work something out. But obviously we have to start with square one first.

I am very anxious about how this is going to go. I’m ok, but my heart is racing.... ughhhh I have a few more days to get through. I should try to calm myself down.

I had two people tell me in the last 4 days that I’m gaining weight. Freaking awesome. I know I’m not as svelte as I was when I was training for my body building comp, but it doesn’t feel good to be called out for my appearance. I know I’m not bad, but I’m not as I was. I’m definitely not working out. I have had zero energy and that’s affecting me. Plus I know I have a lot of cortisol in my system to blame. It’s been a stressful 6 months. Bleh.

Oh and my friend just lost her dog to a tragic accident. She is devastated. I so feel for her right now. Whenever we go out, we always bring our pups with us. It’s just so sad. Don’t know why I needed to share that here... obviously dogs are on my mind and I know how much they can mean to people.