Steve85, so you're saying theres a chance! J/K. I thought 2-3 months may be enough time but man, this is not looking in my favor at all. Granted I made mistakes to delay it. What gets me, Sandi2's H did none of the right DB actions from what I understand, she made it work. I'm done breaking these again for the 2nd or 3rd time. The illusion of action..that one stuck.
Ovrrbrnw, thanks for checking in. Exercise and diet are incredible, actually have visible abs for the first time in about 7 years. Keeping strong on that end. Thats so much easier than the mental part! You're right on being on the fence, I'm changing my mind almost daily here.
LH19, thats a great way of putting it. Already being high anxiety, I'm through the roof!
AS, U, I wonder if I'm subconsciously self sabotaging here and or I dont 100% trust the method. All I know is 2 weeks of breaking all thr rules and 4-6 weeks of following both neither have produced any result. Though I still don't know all the repercussions yet from yesterday chats or the links I shared.
I want happiness, I dont want to become a massively different person to win this woman back and have the pressure of maintaining that new self my whole life. This woman loved me for me, though she said I was all facades yesterdays. She's not 100 percent wrong as I did fall back in to nice guy so I can see how she feels she purchased a lemon. She just forgets repairs can be made or perhaps maintenance was lacking too long. My friends, if my chat yesterday didnt push her out of limbo towards either end, I'm not sure how long I'll stay in limbo. She asked me how long I'd stay and I poorly said many years. She told me it wont be years. I've no clue what her plan is but she is using me, disrespecting me and holding my life and heart in limbo. Per DB rules, I just let this keep going while working on myself?
H37, W37 D4, S2 ILYBNILWY 9/19 BD 9/19 EA discovered 10/19 Currently in limbo, no D or S process initiated
