Core, stop stop stop stop stop! You are breaking every DB rule there is and just absolutely destroying your chances of recon. You need to go completely dark on your W so you can reevaluate what you're doing. Go back to basics. Read the book. Read Sandi's rules EVERY SINGLE DAY and make those a template on how you behave. Go back to your first page and read ever single link Cadet posted. Go back and read every response you've received. Learn to SHUT UP and/ or walk away when you want to speak out. Read other threads on here, read the responses. Right now you need to focus on absorbing and learning.
You really need to understand something- at this moment in time there is NOTHING you can do to bring your W back. NOTHING. But there is PLENTY you can do to drive her farther away, including just about anything you do to try to bring her back. And that's what you've been doing. So stop!
