Howdy all! I'm glad you felt the way you did, and thanks for the thumbs up. But the reason I didn't post it first is because I KNEW it was a good one!

Randy, I'm MORE than ready for answers. The best part of this process is that I'm truly at peace. I have never felt more calm in my life. I'm not anxious or nervous, because I know that there will be absolute truth in the answer he gives me.

I have NO expectations whatsoever of the outcome. And I've worked really hard to put myself in the spot I'm in. I'm actually finding it joyous!

I'm sure you guys think I'm nuts, but it truly is living in the NOW. There is no other truth for me. I've worked really hard at making good and lasting changes, and I've also worked hard to draw Mr. Wonderful back to me. He's as close as he can be without committing himself to reconciliation.

This is how I know the timing is right to ask for what I want. What I want isn't what you guys think it is. I don't want to reconcile my marriage if he doesn't feel the same way. What I DO want is to know what is in his heart. And if that is an expectation, well, so it is. I'm absolutely certain that whatever answer he gives me will be well pondered and truthful.

Life is really good!

Betsey

"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."

Albert Einstein