W BD'd me Dec 9/18...she moved out Feb 1/19 and has been at her own place since then.
She sees our son Wednesday nights and Sundays but otherwise he is with me and sleeps at my place full time.
No concrete evidence of EA/PA at this point but I'm assuming she has been with someone else based on her actions after BD and this summer.
We had a meeting with our L's scheduled late November when I returned from a vacation with my son. When I came back she apologized for her behaviour last winter (partying until 3am with her friends - mostly guys) and said she felt bad that she made me so insecure about our relationship. Also said she hasn't dealt with her dad's death (brain cancer, passed away March 26/19). Asked if we could push our L date back as she has been feeling more like her old self and says her feelings are changing....
Currently - I don't call or text her unless it's about our son. I wait for her to reach out to me. I do invite her to the odd family thing with our son but I have no expectations that she'll join. She has invited me to do a couple of dinners with her side of the family. I do my best to dress well around her and be positive and validate her feelings when appropriate. I think I need to be a bit more elusive and let her wonder more about what I'm up to.
That's about it for now...one year in feels strange. It does make you think of everything that has happened. I've made some positive changes and I guess I'm waiting for her to make some changes too and take care of her emotional health. I think that has to be one of my conditions if we choose to reconcile.
Yes, I'd like to reconcile. We had a good relationship (yes could be improved) and a beautiful little boy who I'd like to grow up with his family intact.
I appreciate all of you who respond to my situation - this is a great community of people who want to help. Thank you.
H 37 W 31 S 2
T: 7 M: 4
BD 12/18 Separated 2/19 Living back together 04/06/2019 W Moved out again 07/15/2019
