As the day has progressed , working alongside her, hearing her sing ,sharing a few jokes been really having to hold it all in, feel like I'm completely smitten with her again.
Very challenging not to pursue a relationship talk, express my love for her etc.
Sure she knows, sure it would be disastrous to do any of the above. D6 had her phone on my lap to watch cartoons.
Oversaw a message to a friend saying that I was attending counselling, we were doing better, talking etc but that she would never get back together, ever!
Bit of a gut punch I'm at the house still, she has gone out to her best friends birthday. Looked amazing walking out the door.
This week has really turned me upside down from where I was last week. She mentioned earlier how confusing this week had been for everybody and wants things to return to "normal" next week
"Normal" is living apart and being seperated to her.
