So... I had to see my W the day after Thanksgiving to exchange our S4, and in the moment of seeing her and getting back into my truck and leaving -- a switch completely flipped. Up until that day I had spent so much time on these forums holding out hope she would come around, constantly watching YouTube videos about being separated, being broken up with, etc.. But after I saw her for the first time in about a month -- I don't care to do any of those things.
I felt absolutely nothing seeing her. I felt no feelings of missing her, I didn't think she looked pretty. I didn't want to give her a hug, kiss her, or anything. She's practically living with the OM now (including my S4 the weeks she has him).. and I'm just... done. I don't necessarily hate her or sit around thinking about all of the terrible things she's done anymore.. I'm just ready to move on. My D will be final in January and I actually feel excited to begin the next chapter of my life.
I'm assuming this is a normal point to get to, it just feels eerie that it almost felt like a switch flipping. One day she constantly consumed my thoughts and I just wanted to reach out to her and then the next I feel even if she came to my house begging for me to take her back I would have to say no.
Just curious to hear from others if there was a singular day they can pinpoint that the switch just flipped like it did in my case.
Like I just stopped caring to "stand for my marriage" anymore. I just sat down.
