1. No peacocking your newfound changes. Be natural. 2. Attorneys always want you to file. That's how they get paid, and hammers only see nails. 3. Don't worry about her journal. A lot of W's (mine included) write down these things, and when you're in this type of sitch they aren't going to write about the picnic in the park with flowers and wine. 4. You're not dying, you're just going through a hard time. It's all mental. It's within your means to change how you feel. Attitudes, thoughts, actions, then emotions. You control how you feel. Hard times make hard men, hard men makes good times. 5. Most people who are WAS's (walk away spouses) are not going to feel in love. Your brain knows this already but your heart hates it. Just breathe. 6. Counselor says you need to "protect yourself" with a divorce eh? Ha, take your time and decide what you want. 7. Look for trial memberships, groupons, etc for gym/GAL. It's out there. I assume you meant $14K over budget and not under.
You need to start resistance training, even if it's calisthenics at home. You need to be eating well. How is this coming along? Are you sleeping a whole night?
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.