Thanks a lot for the nice advice! Yes I am also working on doing GAL activities that involve more people!
I have learnt the hard way the priority system for her is very different to what I thought mattered but I am going to be a rock on this, make me a better man and a better human being in general. Keeping a journal is something I have seen many people recommend, it helps you cope with feelings and also makes you a better speaker of your mind. I will do so!
I had a bad day today, packing up for the trip to Spain I found the wedding ring and it was a tough moment, I ended up doing push-ups until my arms were hurting... what a disaster!
Great advice about the planning for the children FS, I want to see them more often but again I don't want to push her and she seems to be in the mindset of you get your time as per separation agreement. I have read threads in here that make it clear this is for the long run if you ever are to stand a chance and it takes all your effort and patience, but it also converts you into a man and leads you to new levels of maturity. I try to stay positive, act as if this was going to end well (hope for the best and prepare for the worst) and I recap everyday in bed if I took actions that bring me closer or further from the man I want to be.
Thinking about my 2 children gives me superpower and I am not joking. I have started to see I need to forget about W and R and focus on being the best role model for them and enjoy every second I spend together. I will read here today about detachment and as we know, 1 min at a time, 1 day at a time.
Thanks a lot you people are wonderful.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me 29 W:29 M: 5yrs T:10yrs S:6 yrs S:1 yr BD: "I want a D" 08/09/19 Sep: 10/27/19